Fear

I have to come clean. Since reaching halfway I have had a lot of fear bubble up. I know others have expressed before so I wanted to make FEAR the topic this week.

For SOOO much of my adult life I’ve realized that I hid behind my “weight” issue for a lot of different reasons, and some I’m JUST now discovering as I get smaller. I would always blame or fall back on the weight when anything didn’t go well. For example if I went out with a guy and we didn’t hit it off, then it had to be because of the weight. When I lost my baby I blamed . . . what else . . . weight. In spite of boatloads of evidence to support the contrary, it was like my default button. So lately I’ve been getting more attention and while it’s great, it’s also uncomfortable at times.

Then there is economic fear. For all of us in this country it is a volatile time. I’ve been added to the list of potentially having to change positions and even relocate completely - all potentially not definitively - but it has introduced another layer of fear for me.

My coping skills for fear and other emotions have gotten better but they aren’t perfected to the point where I don’t think of food when all of this starts swirling in my head. Last night I had an old school sugar binge . . . cupcakes, cheesecake, and carrot cake. I just didn’t want to be awake for the pain . . . BUT the ironic thing is that the binge didn’t do for me what it used to. I think I’ve worked SO much on becoming self aware on this program that I instinctively started journaling.

I wrote all my fears out and then I wrote what I could do if all those “worse case” scenarios came true. It made me see it was MUCH bigger in my mind that it was in reality.

So that is my challenge for me this week and I offer it to all of you if this is applicable in your life. FACE whatever is bothering you. Play it out on paper all the way through and see for yourself that YOU DO have what it takes to survive . . . no to THRIVE.

So this morning is a clean slate. I’m about to throw the remains of the sugar binge away and head to my consultation.

NEW definition of FEAR:

F Face
E Everything in my life
A and
R Remain on Jenny Craig

So there . . . what’s there really to fear? I’ve just turned it into something good and that’s what it’s all about . . . how we DEFINE a situation/feeling determines how we feel, which then determines how we’ll behave.

Let’s get it started. It’s a brand new day, a clean slate just waiting for all of us to make our mark.

HAPPY NEW DAY everyone!

Here we go…..

Hope

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